Long Long Way to Go

There is a long way in front of me, in which everything is hard to see.No matter how attractive it could be, I don't feel like walking along.

My first term is going to an end. The campus taught me a lot in fact. I admire it. And I know now that never make so high a goal that you can never reach. It is insignificant.

I have known what I have done wrong. I just made a lot of decision and then put it aside. I pay most of my time in studying and complaining. Why complain? You have no right to complain. You didn't pay anything at all. No result is true of virtually.

Animo! Get ready for the final exam!

Tired. Farther & Farther

I am tired now. Be proposed in only a few months. Lingering here always. Nothing to do for the not much but enough distance. Losing confidence in every fields. What is my track?

Well, listen, forget about it for sometime till you get yourself back. I hate myself for the lack of confidence and the fear. So I am managing to change. Last night, it was really the first time. It really shocked me. But in fact I am so sure that nothing will grow from the f'(x)...... Maybe it is a kind of childish. Who knows? Since I have promised to help her taking a good place when Mathematical Analysis course on, I will keep it. That's it. Never think about such things so much. It beyond question has no meaning.

Calm down. It meant nothing. Nobody has got her in hand and then I still have opportunity. Though I know it is rare in fact.

Just now, I realized that what takes me most of the time is still mathematics and friends around me. I didn't pay much time on that thing. Well, what is more disappointing? T_T

Down And Down.

I think we have performed well enough. But why we got so bad a rank? The last but three... Well, maybe we SMS is not good at such game. GODDAMNIT! In fact, I have got a lot during the practise in these past weeks. I never regret.

With a lost book, I lived a down enough week.

Animo!

The final exam is coming. Get ready for it! I should work harder and harder!

It is a little interesting these days. My coffee cup was broken by mistake by a girl and then she bought a better one for me. That's enough, I think. But GODDAMNIT WHY I SAID THAT I WILL TREAT HER COFFEE? WHAT'S ON THE HELL HAVE I SAID?

I feel a little better after sending some SMs to her and got a reply. It is enough for me maybe. I found that I don't want to love these days. But she really take an important place in my soul. I want to hold her in my arms. Well, it is ironic, for at the same time I don't want love at all. God Bless Me. I don't know what I am really thinking now.

Soli Deo Gloria.

What A Suck!

I feel terrible! I lost the book belong to our library! That means a lot of money
T_T

I feel a little down these days. I don't know why.

I feel that I am tired. I want to learn all day and night. I don't want to talk with anybody. That's terrible.

God Fuck Love!

Though slow, smart enough.

It is really an indirect way to say so. Though slow, I am smart enough to catch you. Well, I have to say 'sorry'. Or maybe I should act as I am slow enough.

I don't want to say I am slow. But I am slow for that the SMS in the PKU is so terrible. I find that there are so many buddies that stays much higher there that I can never get. I can't imagine that why there are such men. I feel that I lose almost all my confidence. Sigh, again and again.

Maybe I should act as myself and improve little by little. I don't want to hide myself in others' shadow. So, stop decaying.

A week decay...

I feel that I have decayed all the week......

It is interesting when I heard something I don't care before. Why? Is it the symbol that I need more that before? I don't know.

The exam is coming.

Get ready for it!

Get ready for evething in the future!

I will look for my love.

I will.

Thanksgiving Day!

At the very beginning, I'd like to say, merci, all my friends, thank you all.

I received lots of SMSes yesterday. I was happy. On the other hand, I want a word from her which I didn't get. It made me not that happy. Who cares? I.

I am so childish.

Well, nothing at all. Ta, every buddy, for everyday is a thatsgiving day.